Have you just had one of those days, weeks, maybe years…….where you just keep putting yourself out there and well……….nothing works! Sorry, I’m just frustrated on so many levels that screaming just wouldn’t even make a dent in it. Work is hard, long and more than it should be…..disappointing. When you love what you do more than anything, then you find out that maybe you should have left the club your at cause the money they said was going to be there is just not. It’s freaking March I could have been at Next Level or at Parrillo’s Performance and my business would be rolling. Sometimes you let your heart get in the way of making a good decision. Then all I hear from both coaches is you need to stop training so many people so you can eat and train more……..really…….who the fuck is going to pay my bills, you is going to get me to the fucking shows, who is going to pay for my botox………WHO? I really just want to ramp someones head into a fucking wall. This will not actually make anything better but I feel that it just might get just a little stress out!
The next thing that is driving me crazy is one of my girls is having her 2nd child and I’m heading down to give her a baby shower and believe it or not it seems like nothing I say or try to do is right or good enough………..really!!!! Is it not bad enough that I have to have this stupid thing at my ex husband house???? I’m glad he agreed to it, but really!!!
I guess I’ll just pull up my big girl panties and just make the best of it, at least I’ll get to see the kids and my sweet grand daughter.
At least it’s been a great week for working out, so as shit……hardly can move.
I have one thing that make me get up every morning and that’s I fucking refuse to lose at this or anything that is thrown at me…………so world, kiss my fucking ass!
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